I told a friend that I was writing this book and she asked, What is the title? I told her, Life Warrior—365 combat moves to kick depression. She looked away for a moment and said, I always think of Mother Theresa who said she wouldn’t join a protest against war! When there’s a protest for peace I’ll come along. Then my friend added, Your title just seems too harsh. When I was depressed I kind of gave up resisting and went with the flow.
I answered her, For me depression was a battle. I fought very day. If I gave into it, I wouldn’t be here now. Today, I use strong powerful tools to combat it. Depression may seem like it’s just sadness, or a lack of vitality, but the definition of depression is severe despondency and dejection, typically felt over a period of time and accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy.
Mother Theresa chose an arduous and difficult mission, to work in the slums of Calcutta. She founded the Missionaries of Charity and as her mission grew more difficult she wrote, There is such terrible darkness within me, as if everything was dead. It has been like this more or less from the time I started the work. In my heart there is no faith—no love—no trust—there is so much pain—the pain of longing, the pain of not being wanted. I want God with all the powers of my soul—and yet there between us—there is terrible separation. I don’t pray any longer.
Yet she kept trying to pray: I want to speak—yet nothing comes—I find no words to express the depths of the darkness. In spite of it all—I am His little one—I love Him…. Eventually, she grew accustomed to her condition and wrote: I do not know how deeper will this trial go—how much pain and suffering it will bring to me. This does not worry me anymore. I leave this to Him as I leave everything else…there is such a deep loneliness in my heart that I cannot express it. I want it to be like this for as long as He wants it.
I am definitely not there; Some days I have faith, but not that much. For me, depression is a battle to be fought. It has a stickiness to it that clings like a dark shadow. So I stick with the title of this book. Life Warrior—365 combat moves to kick depression.
Think about whether the direction of this blog is working for you? Are you finding any kind of peace as you follow the suggestions? Are you feeling that it is helpful—because if not, then stop reading. No need to continue on a journey that is not working. But if it is working for you and you feel that your are learning combat moves to kick depression then continue reading.
Breathe, smile and breathe some more. Breathing is key. It is the spiritual link between you and God. Good. I am glad you are still here with me. I would have missed you a great deal if you had stopped reading. So welcome back, I’m glad you are here.