This morning I woke up feeling anxious. Maybe it’s because yesterday I was writing about control. And I realized the best way to overcome wanting to be in control is to pray. I woke up anxious and worried about my grandchildren and their friends. Were their friends treating them well? Did they have good friends and so on. And you know how it is when we start to worry, one worry leads to another worry, and pretty soon it is out of control and we are just one big massive ball of worry and anxiety.
I think that’s why I used to get depressed. The worries became so overwhelming the only way to stop it was to stop altogether. Just stop and stay in bed, or not answer people, or opt out of making decisions.
Thank goodness that today I know about the strength of prayer. And the many different kinds of prayers we have. I used to pray like this, Dear God please help me! and that is good sometimes. Now however, I have been reading the bible and I realize that I can pray a little differently and maybe quote scripture, Dear God, please make crooked paths straight.
And that’s what I did this morning. And then something wonderful happened. I suddenly realized that what I really wanted to pray for was love and being a nurturing parent.
My old way of being is to be critical and tell my family what to do. Now I know a bit differently. Now I know that love and prayer are the most helpful things I can do. So my prayer this morning ended up like this, Dear God, please help me be a loving parent today. Please help me be nurturing and helpful.
Suddenly, out of the blue my anxiety vanished. My worry disappeared. I felt okay. I felt good. I felt that everyone in my life is fully competent to live a good life.The best I can do is pray, not so much about them, but about me.
A bit like the Serenity Prayer. Many of us know the first bit: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
This last bit of the prayer is maybe not so well-known: Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time.Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen. — Reinhold Niebuhr
Today, use prayer to enjoy one moment at a time. Use the Serenity Prayer above if you cannot think of how to pray. Or make up your own prayer. One good way to pray that I use every day, is to be thankful. I pray like this, Dear God, thank you for my life. Thank you for my family. Thank you for helping me be filled with love.
So however you want, and whenever you want, today use prayer to help you focus on where you want to be in life. God grant me the serenity….